Can you feel it, I wonder?
The sand that slowly slips away.
The inexorable march of time,
Ticking away at you,
Piece by piece.
You crumble.
Regret, anguish; there is no joy in what comes.
All you have left are 'what if' memories,
Eating away at you, like maggots on the skin.
So deep was the pain inside of you,
So bitter the desire for change;
You even came crawling back to me,
Begging for another chance.
I wonder,
Shall I give it to you?
He fell in love
with her handwriting –
the way her dribbled g’s
gallivanted into corkscrews –
the way her s’s
would caress the ends of the letters,
lapping at the plurals
and ever so softly
conveying graphite sibilance –
the way her a’s
had jaunty tails
held high,
the apexes of lowercase –
the way her commas
would pause
and the pencil point would press
ever so
slightly
into the filaments –
the way her cursive
flowed like a landscape
(and they say that pictures
are worth more
than the masterstrokes on her looseleaf) –
the way her hand
had crinkled the paper
as she scribbled a note
on
Why did you have to come into my life?
As if I needed another problem.
You're so happy and smart, and perfect.
You're too good for me, so don't give me hope.
While my life is black and white,
Your life is full of colors and emotions.
My life is boring and drab,
Yours is full of good things and love,
Why did you have to come into my life?
As if I needed to fall for you.
It seemed almost like
You were right there again,
Just waiting for me
With your hands outstretched.
But it was just a dream,
And even though I knew it,
I still cried when I woke up,
Thinking of me and you.
She searched ,
with bandaged hands
and burned arms
for the warmth of a soul
in the caked faces
of false men.
She searched ,
with filthy hands
and blind eyes
for joys of life
in the graves
of those who knew
only its tragedies.
She searched ,
with livid hands
and false smiles
for the beauty of reality
in the shadows
smeared upon her walls
and in the moonlight
glaring down upon her.
She searched
with manicured hands
and lyrical words
for gods
in the approval
and recognition of men.
She searched
until she finally found
but
the very things
for which she searched
searched in her
and found
nothing,
but two hands
with blind eyes
burned arms
f
咲くその木
春風に舞う
緩めた手
抱きしめ止めた
探しても無駄
Saku sono ki
Harukaze ni mau
Yurumeta te
Dakishime tometa
Sagashitemo muda
This blooming tree
Dancing in the spring wind
The hand I've loosened
Ceased to embrace me
It's futile even if I search for it